Ugh...I often feel like I'm living invasion of the body snatchers. I know in my heart and mind what I should be doing, but my body seems to have a life of it's own. I feel helpless to get it to obey.I recently had a choice to make...trust God with an area that has been difficult for me (almost a phobia) or give into that fear. At the very last minute I could not make myself do it. I prayed and prayed for God to give me just enough courage and trust to follow through, but my weak human flesh failed me.
It saddens me when I feel I have disappointed God. I could have, should have made a better choice. I should have been able to control my fleshly fears and trusted in my God. Do I really think somehow I am controlling the situation by giving in?
Thankfully, God gives me many chances to make a better choice, a choice to trust and accept his control over my life. Hopefully next time, I can take that step of faith and push past my fleshly fears.
